Loneliness

 

     Have you ever felt like you were in this world alone? Like you are nothing and that nothing you are matters to anybody. Like you are just existing within yourself and unable to break away from that condition.
         We all get lonely at times because of situations that we go through. Loneliness is really dangerous if not contained. It could lead to depression and we all know that depression is a very serious medical condition that could lead to a number of dreadful consequences.
       
           I used to have few to no friends at all and I always thought in my head that even my family never cared. The few I could manage or should I say force myself to call 'friends' either found a way to break my trust or betray me somehow, or maybe I was the problem in a way that I still haven't quite figured out. But anyway I kept drawing into myself day by day. I was locked in that psychological prison that I constructed for myself. Food and Sleep? forget it, I was too busy thinking of how to make it through each day intact to even think about any other thing. It was all as a result of loneliness. I don't blame anybody at all because I know that I secluded myself by myself. My social life was zero thanks to me blocking out my friends so it got really bad. I never spoke to anybody about my problems and worries because I had succeeded in pushing everybody away. The day to day struggle to make it through got worse as days went by. I was all alone in my own world.
         Well to cut the long story short I eventually found a way to break through thanks to help from a couple of people and my willingness to get better, I started getting close and relating to people more as I found out that I was being too strict in judging people and placing high friendship standards. I figured people made mistakes and that either ways that I still needed friends and family so I started opening up.
   
Why did I tell this story? To let you out there that is suffering from this same situation, you that think that there is no one to trust, to let you know that I understand what you are going through and that there is always a way out of anything. There is always hope. It was never easy but slowly I just focused on what I wanted and was able to make it this far. You can also break away from the condition, if you need someone to help you through I would always be willing to help you. I know the struggle. I still am not where I want to be but looking back at my journey so far I can say that I have made a huge progress and I am still on it.